Back After A Year

I always wanted to become a lawyer. When I was ten, I told myself that I will do everything I can in order to fulfill that dream. I cling into it until... my first week in law school. I suddenly became confused on why I want to become a lawyer. I even doubted myself if I can really put up to hours of studying. My last post in this blog was dedicated to that confusion.

After a year, I am now back. I can't say i'm bigger and better. I'm just bigger, but not any better than I was last year. However, I am more confident now. I think i'm a survivor. I survived my first year in law school. I survived the constant grilling, the stress, the politics, and most of all, the QPI (it's an average grade you need to have in order to be retained in law school). The good news is, i'm sure I won't stop studying now. Confusion is not on my vocabulary anymore. I know I am going to finish what I started. The bad news is, I will have to put up with terror professors again. I have to wake up in the wee hours of the morning just to memorize codal provisions word for word. I have to read tons of cases which if measured vertically is taller than me. I have to put up with everyday recitations which can make every babbly and chatty person lose his/her courage to speak. But hey, that's life. I can't always get what I want in just a blink of an eye. If I really want something, I need to word hard for it. Life can't be all happy and prosperous everytime. We need obstacles to feel thrilled and problems to feel challenged. I know that because I feel challenged now, I just don't feel thrilled.