Law School Jitters

I managed to survive my first week in law school. According to my Statutory Construction Professor, it is just a "warm-up" of what is install for us for the next months to come. She also told us that we need to intently look at our block mates now, in the next weeks, some of us will drop and leave law school because they cannot handle the pressure. I am hoping that I won't be one of them.

On my first night, aside from being busy because there were tons of reading assignments given to us, my mind was wondering if law school is really where I belong. I want to be a lawyer, there is no doubt about that, but I have this big fear of failing and not surviving. I've talked to different people who has law school experiences, and from their stories, I developed a perception of what law school is like - it is way different than college. It is harder and a lot more complicated. It is a boot camp. You will not survive if you are too weak and you will perish if you are too sensitive. It is a place where intimidation and ego-tripping is fair and just. And, it has no room for people like me, coward, timid and not yet ready for hardships and sacrifices.

However, no matter how big my fear is, I decided that I will not give up my dream just like that. I won't give up law school without a fight. It is one of my grandest dream, I have been preparing for it almost all my life. I realized that law school is not called a boot camp for nothing. Of course it has a room for people like me, it is where coward, timid and not yet ready people are trained and molded to become better persons, where we can be taught of how to overcome fears. Lawyers are respected and honored not just for the fact that they know the law, people respect them too because they are survivors - they are the "few" who managed to survived the hardships of law school, the "few" who managed to overcome their fears. I promised myself that I would be one of these "few". I might be wounded and scarred while in the process, but I won't give up because of fear. I know I can overcome it.